According to the radio weather guy it’s the coldest evening of the year so far. According to my mental weather station it’s warm and sunny today. It’s my hump day of the Challenge, I am half-way through. This thought is good enough. But the main source of warmth today is the words of care, support,… Continue reading Ration Challenge: Day 4 (aka The Warmth of Words)
Ration Challenge Day 2: I am hungry
The sun was so generous today with shine and warmth…. I went outside during lunch time. “To fresh my brain”, – was my self-talk. In fact, I probably didn’t want to be around people eating delicious, nutritios food, that was not RICE! At lunch time it was bearable. but close to 4 pm I stopped… Continue reading Ration Challenge Day 2: I am hungry
Ration Challenge: two days to start (aka “last before fast”)
I have amazing people around me. Really supportive. We had a laughing lunch today at Rahzoo – the “last before fast” one. Good-buy, all beautiful delicious nutritios salads of Rahzoo…. Next time we share a meal with my friends I’ll be on a rice diet. In only I haven’t eat all 450 gramm of the weekly… Continue reading Ration Challenge: two days to start (aka “last before fast”)
Время жить?
Приходит время, когда ты остаешься один на один со своими проблемами. Не потому, что рядом нет близких или друзей. Они есть. Иногда до них можно дотронуться. Они говорят тебе, что это твой выбор, что ты сама решаешь, как тебе жить, что это все – твоя гордыня, и тебе нравится нести свой крест, и ты хочешь… Continue reading Время жить?
Memories? Stop
It was exactly a week. Last time I saw him he said: “They gave me from one week to one month”. He has been always accurate – in his noble way. To his last day. To his last breath. When I was leaving him in a resthome a week ago, I was leaving to see… Continue reading Memories? Stop
There was hope.
When she had her brain bleed I didn’t want to believe that’s it. I just couldn’t. The first month was all about survival. She had the bleed, the hydrocephalus, the pneumonia, the heart failure.. she couldn’t drink, sit, even turn in bed. The second month was hope. First time sitting in bed. First time to… Continue reading There was hope.
Ration Challenge: salad is back!
Hello, my coffee! Welcome back, salad! Nice to see you again, my freedom of choice of food and drink! Very good to meet you, my post-challenge thoughts and reflections. I need some more time to digest the experience of non-eating. For now I am tired, grateful, glad. With the help of my friends I’ve raised… Continue reading Ration Challenge: salad is back!
Ration Challenge: Day 6 (aka Relationships)
Day 6 was not just about me. There were two of us in the kitchen. Same ration. Two portions. Double responsibility. What if he doesn’t like it? Risk to spoil the food. Risk to ruin relationships. My relationships didn’t survive through collapse of USSR, didn’t survive moving countries on a voluntary basis. It was… Continue reading Ration Challenge: Day 6 (aka Relationships)
Ration Challenge: Day 5 (aka Responsibility)
My falafel was good!! Delicious, tasty, so much needed protein! It came as a reward at the end of the fifth’s day of the Ration Challenge. But it also came with some worry. When I measured the qualities for the two day portion, I thought I could count the peas instead of using a… Continue reading Ration Challenge: Day 5 (aka Responsibility)
Ration Challenge:Day 3 (aka Just Low…)
Feeling low and down today. I feel cold sharper when I am hungry and know there would be no more food today. It feels also sad, low energy, gloomy – the world is not for you, not with you. I am sitting in my warm room, with purring cat – and I am feeling so… Continue reading Ration Challenge:Day 3 (aka Just Low…)
Ration challenge: one day to start. Boy, it’s not a lot!
One day to start my Refugee Challenge. I went to a supermarket today to fill my ration bags. I got chickpeas and lentils from dispensers. My understanding of what 85 g of chickpeas and 170g of lentils was very far from reality. BOY IT’S NOT A LOT!!!! I had to empty the bags twice before… Continue reading Ration challenge: one day to start. Boy, it’s not a lot!
